Blue

Classes are over and I'm disappointed because I wanted to attend college in the morning and it didn't work for me for the secon time. It's time for me to stop trying to wake up early to go to school, it isn't for me, I'm happier at noon I guess.

Lost and found

This week has been good, I can't complain. School is good, life's good and that doesn't mean I don't get to have a good adventure.

I've tried to get along with a couple of classmates and it seems that I can't, I'm aware that I'm a difficult person to hang around with (that's why I prefer to be alone) but I thought, for a second, that we could be some kind of friends, I don't see it that way anymore. Maybe it's because I try to hard to get along with people, even though I know it doesn't work that way, maybe I can't understand (or I don't want to) new people, people I don't know well, maybe I feel uncomfortable with people wanting to know me better. In conclusion, I don't trust people.

I guess I'm overthinking it (I do it all the time).

In other news, I got lost! For the first time in my entire life! I wanted to walked from my school to the metro station so I can wait for the bus there but I walked and walked and walked. Supposedly it's a 15 min. walk but I walked like one hour straight and at the very end, when I was more clueless than ever, I realized I was walking by the back yard of my school.

I don't know how that happened, I just walked. Funny thing is that I had to take the bus where I take it everyday so yeah, it was for nothing but the adventure. Fun, fun.

Day 1/10 study challenge

Day 1.- Clean up and photograph your study space to share with us.

This is my study space (most of the time) and I think I’d change it if I could, since I live in a building I don’t really have a nice view by the window which is good and bad at the same time (good because I don’t get distracted by the environment, bad because the view really sucks).

I usually clean my desk one or two time at month, I know I should do it more often, I'm trying, since I use this desk a lot it's always messy.

Clean desk

I keep my stationery in my bookshelf so when I'm on my desk I need to bring everything. Fun story is that I have another desk, much prettier because it's made of glass and I love it, but I don't use it because there isn't enough space in my room for it.

Laboratory notes

I know I have a problem when it comes to stationery (I don't know if anyone actually cares but if you do then I'll do a post about it) and I have a good amount of supplies, I want more though

Mess

Stationary

Steadtler fineliners ♥

Updating & stuff

I failed calculus! Noooooooooooooo!!!!

In other news I'm in the fifth week of the trimester (5 out of 12) so I think I can prepare myself and I think I can pass the next two exams. 

I think I've been feeling better and that's thanks to music and thanks to my dog. I'll write soon! :)

Blue

These past days have been really hard for me. I've been feeling really bad and I don't know if it happened because I had a long weekend at home, I doubt it though. I stayed at home part of Monday and I went to school at 2:00 pm, wasn't feeling like attending calculus class. In the morning I was kinda sore, my legs were sore and I felt too sleepy, I drank water and I had breakfast and it didn't help

I just want to sleep all day, I don't want to think about anything anymore, I feel like I'm carrying a heavy burden on my shoulders and it's starting to get heavier. I wonder if I'd ever feel good, like really happy, I long for that to come.

How am I doing?

For this trimester I decided to take my classes in the morning, it was a bad idea at first but when I walked inside the library at such early morning (around 9:00am) after my first class I was so happy and surprised to see it so empty! It was just me and like other 2 or 3 people, it was so quiet!

Library, early in the morning!

One of the classes I'm taking is Calculus, I absolutely love it but sometimes it's kinda hard because I'm dyslexic so sometimes I don't understand quiet well what the teacher wants me to do, or it is just hard to get the idea. Fortunately I've found some ways to make everything more easy to comprehend. I don't use color coding because I easily forget about the coding, instead I just try to write everything, every single idea and I complete it with some graphics or sketches in separate index cards. I need to do this to fully understand (not only remember it, but it's important to know how it works). I'm giving my best, I need to get the best notes!

Calc. notebook :)

I love my binder ♥ and my pens ♥ and my notebook ♥ everything ♥

I'm not killing myself studying (now) but I'm doing my best to keep on track, I don't want to be the day before the exam crying and asking myself why I didn't study earlier. 

Another week starts in college, a hard one I guess (but I can't wait to Tuesday to get my 

방탄소년단(BTS) CD! So excited!) I have some homework due this week so wait for it! Yeah, just wait for it.

By the way, thank you for reading this, you're awesome and this world wouldn't be the same without you!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

First three days of college

So I started the new trimester two days ago and I had to skip today because I'm extremely sick and yeah, that sucks.

I'm kinda, not scared, but I'm trying to take everything easy because a couple of my teachers are so evil, I'm sure I'll be crying tears of blood, is ok though, I love challenges.

Wish me luck and good health :)

M.C.A.T. (México City Adventure Time) N° 4

Random pictures taken at college (UAM)

Nice weather... such a shame that we never get this very often

Later that day...

Nothing better than a chalkboard... 

Spring is coming

Took this while I was laying on grass... listening music... you can get the picture... literally

Adios... for now.

Today was officialy my last day of school and I could not be more happy about it, although I have to go on Monday, but that's only for paperwork. This is the first time in a long time that I feel so good about college, I know I could've done better but isn't easy to deal with depression and have to attend school.

Can't wait to see the syllabus for the next trimester, and I tell you that I will nail it.

Should I make a list of objectives? Like a bucket list for the trimester... I'll think about it...

Long time no see

Has been a while since I was here and so much has happened, life is in constant change and it'll keep moving, as we all do, as earth does, as the Milky Way does.

This sense of despair is growing every day.

Oh no!!! Monday!!

I don't know why but I hate Sundays... because they're before Monday, and I hate Mondays as well. Today I should be at college but hey! guess what? I don't have any class today! Not sure if good or bad because that means Tuesday is the new Monday, good thing is that Sunday is a new Saturday and Saturday is Saturday... so Sunday is like Saturday.1 :D

I was thinking about going to McDonalds cause there's nothing to eat in here! TwT. Should I go and Vlog?

Trimester is over~!

Yes! Yes! It is over! So now I have "one month" free... I say "one month" because I have to get ready for a very important test. A year ago, when my mom died, I was this close to give up on school so I just stopped going, but then I realized school, college, was the only thing I had, and I knew my mom would've been disappointed if I just quit so I kept going, unfortunately I couldn't pass all  my classes, now I have just one left to pass! I know I can do eeet!

I'm not even bothered because of the test, I honestly have a bad time when I'm off duty (lel) because I get bored, very bored, and I can't go out at this time of the year. How would you call a person that gets headache for being under the sun during short periods of time? :( that's what happens to me very often, so I prefer to stay at home... which is bad, and not so bad, because you know... I get bored but without headache (ay no).

I'll get an umbrella to go around México City =/

Yesterday while I was dying of boredom at my house I record some footage and made a little timelapse...